Read in the papers today that tennis beauty
Maria Sharapova bears strong desires to revive her old,
fearless self - the gutsy, gungho 17-year old who fearlessly defeated all odds to win her first grand slam.

I've never been a fan of Sharapova, but in this instance, she does make a lot of sense. True. It wasn't just physical strength or on-court tactics that won her the Wimbledon two years ago, but the fact that she just went into the competition, fearing...NOTHING. There was nothing to lose, so naturally, she had nothing to be afraid of.
Wouldn't life would be great if we could be fearless in whatever we do!
Human beings generally live under a cloak of fear; there's the fear of loneliness - so some fill their lives with all sorts of self-gratifying activities to kill time - , the fear of being labelled society's outcast - so some jump on the fleeting bandwagon of blind consumerism and materialism - , the fear of shame amongst peers - so some climb the corporate ladder, flash their gold cards and strive for that first million with no regrets.
Of course, there's the fear of karma - so some call donation hotlines, do their part on flag days, pray to the gods and make silent pleas for divine forgiveness.
Me? I had my fears too, once aplenty when it comes to dealing with matters of the heart. Years back, if I hadn't succumbed to the fear of consequence & the unknown, I would have bared my soul to a certain somebody. My life would have been vastly different today.
If not for my fear of hurting another's feelings, I would have decisively ended a previous relationship that lasted longer than its due date, sparing myself all that post-romance ugliness.
Swinging back to the present...now, I just feel old. And I'll be the first to admit that I fear AGING. (Had a conversation with TSO about this sometime ago and we both agreed aging's more scary than death.)
It's not so much about the wrinkles or the biological effects, but more like how it'll mean you are confirmed an old woman liao and being an old woman, by definition, you cannot behave in ways that don't complement your age.

In a moment of impulse, I blurted out to TSO -- Don't care. I still want to wear berms when I'm old, I still want to listen to metal, I still want to write silly songs, I still want to jog and hit the gym occasionally. And at my wedding, I'm not going to play that all those oh biang tunes like 'Xuan Ze' or 'Tonight, Let's Celebrate My Love'. The background music shall be Firehouse, Bon Jovi. Or better still Nirvana.
Shucks, this is such a long post...must have been the black coffee just now. Making me go all pensive under a dark, cloudless night sky.